Bah....

Well after I made that lovely list on my last post, guess how many of those things I did every day? None... Several of them I did fairly regularly and a few of them I didn't do at all so the rest of this post shouldn't come as a surprise:

I took the GRE on Friday AND... I didn't do very well. I won't receive my official scores until November but they gave me a range based on the old test's scoring system and I will more than likely have to take it again. You can only take the test once every 60 days now so I can't take it until the end of October at the earliest... And scores will still not be available until November. I can take the prep class at the U as much as I want for the next three years and not be recharged. Or I can wait and see what my scores are and if some school out there will take pity on me and let me in. Another option is to find a grad program that does not require the GRE, one of the few I've seen is Social Work. Or find a second bachelor's degree that has better job prospects than the one I have and go for that... Ugh...

I won't lie to you, when the screen showed me my score, I was very disappointed... So much so that I cried the entire drive home. I really did not want to have to take it again. My verbal score will probably be okay but the quantitative was horrible. If I score in the upper part of the range I might be okay, although based off of the average scores from grad schools I'm looking at, my score is still below it.

I blame myself for sure. I definitely did not study as much as I should have and didn't follow the tips I learned from my prep class at the U. BUT many people have to take it more than once so it shouldn't make me look like a total idiot... right???